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month

April 2010

I just found this for the first time, I love them so much.

I want to weigh 15 less pounds, I want white straight teeth, a smaller/better nose, good cheek structure, and good skin.

work, gym, ihop with dom and quel, tbs sing alongs, lady gaga sing alongs, cumberland monastery adventure with nick alves, and now all i’m waiting for is matt’s phone call to perfectly end my night. i’m going to sleep so well tonight.

I just hit my elbow on my shelf and one of my snow globes fell and broke. I’m sad.

I'm struggling to get out of bed this morning.

I have to do it though. Eating breakfast, going to BCC to finalize some financial aid crap, hitting up the gym, tanning, and then working until 10. Only three more days until I get to see Matty, Dan Lopes, Brand New, and my pay check. This weather isn’t exactly my favorite and losing my favorite chartreuse cardigan isn’t my favorite either.

I feel like my sister is going to ruin the Lady Gaga concert for me. I really wish she wasn’t coming with us.

I’m going to be ten times happier when Lindsay is home from school. Maybe 100 times happier.

I'm dumb for letting a bathing suit put me in such...

Every day is a good day.

Work was wretched but my first glimpse of Matt after was perfect. Every day since him has been a good day. It’s refreshing to have someone to always understand you, where you’re coming from, and just be always so real about everything with you. I’m more than lucky to have someone as open minded, kind, easy to get along with, and cute as him. It was nice having Raquel, Vanessa,...

Matt’s in class and I can’t wait for him to get back here so I can beg him to snuggle for just two more minutes before we leave. We’re going to Sonic today mmmm!

So Dan Lopes and I decided

that we must go to Six Flags in New Jersey this summer. Different park, different rides, and a fucking safari. 4 hours and 23 minutes got nothing on us! Who is down?

Some things to smile about:

Not only did I get a great review and a small raise at work my manager Becky wants me to possibly take a try on visuals for the store. I would get the opportunity to help rearrange the store structures and work on mannequin and other displays around the store! I have always wanted to work in the visuals department for retail so this is a great way to start. I get to see Matt after work tomorrow...

“This is a promise with a catch. Only if you’re looking will it find you...”

– Daniel Johnston

some kid posts a facebook status that says: hitler is my hero, and i post one saying that 420 isn’t a holiday, and i get shit on. what is this world coming to?

10 Things You Would Buy If You Won the Lottery: 1. A four door Jeep Wrangler. 2. So much clothes. 3. So much MAC makeup. 4. A house for my family. 5. Tattoos. 6. Presents for my best friend and Matt. 7. A Louis Vuitton bag. 8. A plane ticket for Matt and I to vacation. 9. Designer sunglasses. 10. Juicy charms for my bracelet. 9 Musicians/Bands You Love: 1. Brand new. 2. Saves the Day. 3. Lady...

I can't wait until Thursday, I am going to see you...

you're beautiful.

everything you say is beautiful. every look you give me is beautiful. every touch from you is beautiful. every laugh is beautiful. every smile is more than beautiful. everything about you is beautiful from your hair to your toes. everything about you is beautiful from your fair skin to your big heart. missing you is beautiful. holding you is beautiful. having you is beautiful. you even make me...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO AND KEL.

heyitslopes: raquelguilherme: Dan lopes who are you talking about and to in your posts? I have no idea whats going on for the day. Im in my kitchen eating a quesadilla and my grandma is stuck in Spain on her birthday because her flight to Switzerland was cancelled due to this. http://cnmnewsnetwork.com/18145/ash-cloud-over-europe-2010-airline-cancellations-delays-and-frustrations/ I’m...

Is it weird that Lady Gaga being bisexual makes me...

Hmmm, gimme a piece of that ;].

I just woke up and am about to head out to the gym for a bit. Afterwards I should probably shower so at least I am already washed up for the day. Matt, Quel, Tyler, Lindsay, and I have to run some errands for the party tonight and then go to the apartment to set everything up. I have to make sure not to forget anything. I really hope everyone comes by tonight, it would really mean A LOT to John,...

He hates videos, but I love him. Why does he have to be so damn cute all the time?

Matt’s trying to break the high score on every game he has on his ipod touch and I am anxiously waiting for my dad to get home with my large half cheese half bbq chicken pizza. I am excited to see everyone tomorrow night. I love Matt he is so cutey.

Registered for my Fall classes this morning.

Mondays: English 8-9:15 Tuesdays: General Bio 8-9:15 Fundamentals of algebra 12:30-1:45 General Psychology 2-3:25 Wednesdays: English 8-9:15 Thursdays: General Bio 8-9:15 Lab 9:30-11:20 Fundamentals of algebra 12:30-1:45 General Psychology 2-3:25 Fridays: No classes! EDIT: Yes I signed up for 8 a.m. classes Monday through Thursday, but with work and all, getting finished with class...

I feel like for myself I'm doing well.

I’ve been watching what I eat, cutting back all soda, working out, working my job, setting up stuff for school, handling an awesome relationship with my mom, and trying to keep my room clean. I do although feel rather lonely. I would like more than anything to just be able to spend more time with Vanessa and Raquel (I miss them) whether it’s hanging out outside, watching movies, or...

training session at the gym, breakfast, work, dom, the gym.

The sunlight looks awfully dull this morning. I know it will look brighter Friday morning when it wakes me up to you.

you know what sucks? going through a very tiring day with only one thing on your mind: being able to talk to someone. every bad thing that happens that day is just a reminder that you will at some point, later on, be able to talk to the person you can’t get your mind off, and everything else won’t matter aside from their cuteness, freshness and good humor. the part that sucks is when...

and just read through all of the first three conversations Matt and I had on AIM. He gave me some of the most perfectly put compliments and out of everything, I can’t seem to put my finger on why this will forever be my favorite: “you’re so sweet. i might just eat you.” It’s perfect.

Worked 12:30 to 7 today then went to the gym until 9. I ran five miles and I feel good. I can not wait to go back tomorrow. This week is filled with things I need to do for myself like: the gym, working with a trainer at the gym Wednesday, scheduling classes and talking about financial aid with an advisor at school Thursday, and lots of fun things for myself like: visiting Matt at school Thursday...

Just woke up to the sun being out,

I love that. Grubbing on some breakfast then getting ready for work. I’m hitting up the gym after work and making myself a salad for dinner.

Is it Thursday yet?

All this pump up for Lady Gaga in July, I barely remembered how soon Brand New is. I can not wait to go see my all time favorite band, with a great friend and my incredible boyfriend who I met dancing and singing like a fool the last time I saw them play. Too perfect.

“Like I don’t even like being high anymore, I just like the smoking and...”

So maybe this weekend was wonderful.

I got to spend Friday cuddling up with Matt, getting delicious Panera, watching t.v. and napping. Saturday I spent the afternoon in Boston with Raquel, Tyler and Matt. We shopped around, ate at B Good, and goofed about. Taking the train home with my boyfriend and best friend could have been one of the most refreshing feelings in the world. The three of us stopped by John Bert’s for a bit...

“Well I wish that I was as good as you, caring and trusting.”

Love drunk calls from Lindsay, love snuggles with Matty, love panera soup and salad, love more snuggles with Matty, love Shrek 2, love bedtime.

When I hopped into bed last night I pretended I knew where you were. I pretended I knew you were hopping in bed too. I proceeded to wrap my arms around my pillow acting as if it was you. I slept on my right side last night. I never do that, I always sleep on my left. Except for when you call the wall side so I’m forced to sleep on my right side in order to face you. Except for last night...

I had a nice day, the weather got better.

I spent the day getting pizza and frozen yogurt in Providence with Dan, Vanessa and Raquel. We followed it up with sing alongs, laughing our asses of as Vanessa asked walker byers how to get to Thayer St in portuguese, riding se saws, meeting up with Dan Couming and Dom, and having a little fire with them at my house. What great company. I’m absolutely dreading work tomorrow.